Sunday, May 12, 2013

Somewhere out there...

Somewhere out there she is thinking of you, how couldn't she, she gave you life....

This Mother's day we decided to start the tradition to celebrate Lottie's Birthmother. We decided each year she will pick some flowers and decide on a special place where she would like to leave them... This will be hard the first few years as Lottie doesn't understand, but I feel it will be important for her to see, that even before she could understand, I did.  This year we have two bouquets on our kitchen table, two beautiful arrangements that resemble the two woman that together weave her story.

I want my daughter to know how much I think of her Birthmother.  It is daily!  Everyday I think of her, and thank her for choosing life and giving me my precious daughter.  The woman Lottie resembles.  Her beautiful eyes, lips, oh and that smile.  The woman who carried her for 9 months.  The woman who kissed her first, cradled her and loved her.  She loved her so much she gave her more.  This woman who I will never know. but who I will forever be grateful for giving me such a precious gift.  

This year, I am not really able to fully comprehend it all, yet alone begin to express my thoughts, but I will spend my life in gratitude for the opportunity to be Lottie's mother and forever will think of her biological mother whom gave her life.  Today we will celebrate her.



And today we celebrate all Mother's...

"To those who gave birth this year to their first child—we celebrate with you
To those who lost a child this year – we mourn with you
To those who are in the trenches with little ones every day and wear the badge of food stains – we appreciate you
To those who experienced loss this year through miscarriage, failed adoptions, or running away—we mourn with you
To those who walk the hard path of infertility, fraught with pokes, prods, tears, and disappointment – we walk with you. Forgive us when we say foolish things. We don’t mean to make this harder than it is.
To those who are foster moms, mentor moms, and spiritual moms – we need you
To those who have warm and close relationships with your children – we celebrate with you
To those who have disappointment, heart ache, and distance with your children – we sit with you
To those who lost their mothers this year – we grieve with you
To those who experienced abuse at the hands of your own mother – we acknowledge your experience
To those who lived through driving tests, medical tests, and the overall testing of motherhood – we are better for having you in our midst
To those who will have emptier nests in the upcoming year – we grieve and rejoice with you
And to those who are pregnant with new life, both expected and surprising –we anticipate with you
This Mother’s Day, we walk with you. Mothering is not for the faint of heart and we have real warriors in our midst. We remember you." -Amy Young

3 comments:

  1. What a beautiful gift to give your daughter! She will always know how much she is loved and never have to feel guilty to think about her birthmother. Happy Mother's Day!

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  2. This is absolutely amazing Winn. Goosebumps all over. As a biological mother, I can say that this is one of the most touching things. I'm sure she thinks of you daily as well, and is so thankful for you.

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  3. This is beautiful! You are such a great mom!

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